I completed my 15th ECT yesterday. From what I’m told, I am acting like a completely different person. I guess that they are right. I’m bathing and shaving everyday (I know that it sounds gross not bathing but when the depression is really kicking getting out of bed is a victory.)
I’m doing much better at most aspects of everyday living. I’m one of the top performers at work. In fact, not only have I not missed work in over a month, I’m working six days a week. I haven’t thought about suicide for over a month. I actually talked to my little boy for 30 minutes on the phone last night. Normally I can’t keep him on the phone more than 5 minutes.
The downside is the ECTs are scrambling my thoughts the day of treatment and really messing with my sleep. I have to get up at five am to go to the appointment, get back to my halfway house (the halfway house is a story for another time) around 9. Cant’ get back to sleep I work 2 to 11 but have to take a one hour bus ride to work. Because of the shoddy mass transit here, I have to get to work an hour early or I’ll be there 20 minutes late. I work Saturdays 10 am to 7 pm. So between 4 hours a morning Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, two hours of commuting to work each day and then working 8 hours a day, I have 70 hour weeks. It’s taking a toll but I feel so much more balanced
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